It's been a long ass time but i'm back

I could never leave xanga for good it's a good thing to come back to every now and then when I'm stressed and don't want people judgeing me about my thoughts. So Keenan treats me so much better than he used to it's amazing I never thought anyone could actually change like that especially after so long but he has for the most part. He's still a stubborn ass though at times which is annoying as hell but what can you do? Right now were in a fight actually and that's pretty much why i'm writing in here. I'm stressed to the max about it and I IMed him and his mom was on and it was embarrassing but i guess it made me realize that i'm stupid and stuff and idk it just sucks I love him and I don't think that's ever going to change